Is it me?

I’m starting to feel abandonded… it’s like there are so many people out there that i haven’t talked to in forever, and they don’t reach out to me.  Is it me?

I have to  admit i’ve snubbed people, people who were doing things that were obviously “wrong”.  People who the group believed to be Immature, or just well bad.  i used to think i was so loyal, but i’ve abandonded people.  I thought i was doing what was best for everyone.  So why am i alone?

I made it clear i didn’t want to be around the bad influences nemore.  I was cheered on and people stood by me, but those people seem to have dissapeared.  It seems as though the people i’ve snubbed or the people i’ve abandonded are more fun, or more better and others want to be around them.  No one calls me any more.    Some people can blame it on the distance.  Some people can blame it on the dog.

In a world where everyone is connected even without the regular social media that most peple have to connect me, i know what’s going on.  Even i can’t live in a vacuum of ignorance for other people.  But i still feel alone.  So i’m wondering if all these people who i ditched for drugs, questionable decisions, drama, emotional abuse, booze benders, are hanging out and being happy with the people who told me it was right for me to leave, and supported my snobby decision.

Is it me?

Is it normal to leave behind so much?

When you look at people who have been married and divorced 4 or more times, doesn’t the thought cross your mind… what’s wrong with that person?  At a cerrtain point its not the spouse it’s you.

Does the same thing work with non-romantic relationships?

Is it me?

Am i like Onyx now Raven?

Onyx now Raven was doing so well, but now she’s struggling.

My boyfriend and Nina’s boyfriend believe that it’s only a matter of time.  She can’t be uptight forever.  I’m not so sure,  i hope she can stay with them, however i’m concerend that they may have enough pets without her there.  She needs a lot of attention and that makes owning her hard with other pets.  I think they can do it.  I hope they can do it.  She just seems so happy there.  I’m sure she thinks we’re all nuts though, she’s just being a dog.

At least she’s still not humping pillows…

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“get it out of my house” he says

But she’s not eating well…

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They say cuddling, i say a little bit of Dom cuddling…

They are working on bed and spot.  She gets it but is stillpushy and needy. Le sigh…

Well if there’s hope for PA i guess there’s hope for all of us?

Until next time.

P.S. Nolan’s first birthday party was awesome 😉

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